Fail

Listening to: Tokio Hotel - Wo Sind Eure Haende?

Okay, so... I totally fucked up my English Lit exam because of a SPIDER.

There was one on my arm about 15/20 minutes into the exam, and I had to literally bite my tongue to not scream down the exam hall, and I was sat there for about ten minutes after flinging it somewhere - 10 minutes which I needed - trying to calm down and stop almost crying because it scared me so much. So after that I couldn't think, was shaking and on the verge of tears (still am now?!) and my answers were basically shit. I can't believe me, out of the 250 people or so in the room, had to get the spider. It was tiny, too!! I was paranoid all the way through the rest of the exam because I had no idea where it had gone, if it was still on me, or what.

Fuckking hell, my fear of them is just getting worse and worse. I can't believe it's wrecked my paper.

I'm now sat here with my head feeling like it's about to explode. I can't take any painkillers because I've had alcohol and... I'm fucking angry.

xox

Partly

Listening to: Nickelback - Follow you home

Today has been quite alright. The whole other-way-around-jinxing-thing half worked! I got a really good question... but I didn't have enough time. Fair play, I'll get another 20 minutes in the actual exam, which i will deff. need, it's not ~too~ much to worry about.

IT'S GO:AUDIO TOMORROW!
I'm so excited it's untrue, about the gig, that is. The rest... not so much. :/

I'm cold. Going for a jumper, may blog later, leute.
Auf wiedersehen x

Time for a new phase

Listening to: Placebo - English summer rain

I think I have a new favourite band (not including Tokio Hotel, blates). Observe:

Brian Molko is actually gorgeous, no? <3

I have the other part of the English exam tomorrow... I'll probably fail that too, even though I know the poems better than the stories. Maybe if I say i'm not confident it'll jinx it so I do well... unlike the other time. I also have a little extra time on maths, so before I go to bed I need to revise when to use the Sin rule, and when to use the Cosine rule, then I can maybe answer a couple more questions ,)

Oh, I have to bus it to school in the morning. And then home, too. Because my mum has finished work for two weeks now, and my sister finishes tomorrow. I, however, have another week. I am not impressed.

Nicht gut.

Mittwoch

Listening to: Westlife - Amazing <3

I failed my english exam, jinxed it. I wrote the same point about 5 times in five different ways. We haven't learnt how to structure or write an essay! I hate my teacher. He is crap.

One of my friends is being clingly, so I'm being a bitch them them. Can't help it. Not my fault. >___< It's not that I dont like them, they're just pissing me off at the moment, and I can't fall out with them now. I don't know if they read this so I wont say why. But I end up giving really short, one-word answers and they don't get the message! Gahh, please stop. Just for a while. But then in person they're fine. Its just online.

Anyway... ich bin so muede, jetzt, so ich will ins bett gehen. gute nacht x