Morgen

Listening to: Placebo - This Picture

Today is my last ~full~ day of freedom before college starts tomorrow. Well, tomorrow is induction, and I only have to go in 1pm - 4, and then lessons start for real on Tuesday. Surprisingly, I'm not as nervous as I thought I'd be. I think all the times I've been to the college lately has quelled my nerves a bit. What I am nervous for, though, is the bus journey there, though that's more for the Tuesday morning. Because I'm going in in the afternoon tomorrow, I'm ~guessing~ the bus won't be as full. To be honest, I'm only nervous about it because I'm on my own. I don't know many people at college, but Kathryn is going and there's the other two girls I met on the open day.

I'm going to take advantage of my free day and do nothing. Well, nothing that doesn't involve in bed, on my laptop and writing/reading/talking/etc. I have to walk the dog in an hour or so, but other than that I'm not moving unless absolutely necessary. :)

Spain

Listening to: Cinema Bizarre - Toyz

After another long lack of absense (during which I've been lazy and in Spain), I am back. Hopefully will blog more often, if I can sort my act out. :p

Spain was a lot better than I thought it would be; because Ben and David came I thought it would be hellish. It was boring in places, and way too hot, and I got burnt in the shade on the first full day -__-


That was 3 days after, so it had calmed a little by then. It was painful; still peeling now.

The views from the patio outside the house:


Then we were made to have some pictures on the second to last day. They're actually pretty nice.

That one is my favourite.

In other news, I adore the new TH song "Automatisch"/"Automatic", I get my GCSE results TOMORROW (*panic mode*) and I have my college enrollment interview on Tuesday.

Wish me luck!

xox

Comment disaster + The Countdown begins

Listening to: Tokio Hotel - An Deiner Seite (Ich Bin Da)

Sooo, today was college day. Last night was bad. After trying for days to get a reply from Kathryn (friend from Fishers who I was gonna go with..), and failing, and not having her number, mum ended up taking me. It was so daunting, being there by myself, but I've really gotta suck it up. I swear, I have chronic shyness or something, so I'm quite proud of myself for managing some time alone. Anyway, then I got lost and this teacher asked where I wanted to go, which was Psychology, and in there was two girls. I got talking to them, and then went with them for the rest of it. They were nice, and knew of/like Tokio Hotel, which was a bonus, and really rather surprising. One is taking Psychology & German, like me, so may be in my classes, which is alreet.

In all, the day was shit, pointless, and totally unnecessary. I got given some websites... that's it. Wasted an entire morning, and got up at twenty to fucking seven for nothing, really. Yeah, made some friends, and It hopefully won't be so daunting in September, but even so. Beside the point.

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Tom added comments to his blog... It's funny, it was literally only on the Sunday when he began it (I think), that I was thinking about how good it was without fangirling comments. Now, I can fangirl as much as the next obsessive, but there's a time and a place. And that place is not on Tom's blog, where he -- or crew, or other band member, or any one who actually blogs or whatever (if I'm being cynical) can see. There is physically only one decent comment per page (out of about 5000 comments... in one afternoon!!), saying the comments are a bad idea. Every other is like "Come to my country *insert name*" or "TOM I LOVE YOU" or "Tom, Tell Bill I love him!" Blah blah blah. And ip adresses can be seen, which is odd. And worrying.

I just hope they crash his computer or something, so they're forced to take them down. *evil* But seriously, even with 21000+ votes FOR comments, they should have known it would turn out exactly like this.

The only upside I can see, is that they may realise some more countries want them to visit. That is, if they ever see the comments with said countries in, anyway.

xox

ps 6 days until my birthday :D

After an absence

Listening to: Kanye West - Love lockdown

I haven't blogged for a while. I haven't had the patience to, to be honest.

I've been everywhere these past few days, and it's been terrible. I've been the moodiest bitch ever, and it's been baaaad. I think I insulted a few people I didn't mean to and just blah, but I think I'm over it now... Tonight has been better.

I felt very loved today, was huugged several times and have had some nice conversations. Despite some grades that I got back and was not pleased with some, today has been quite okay. Although it feels like Friday, which means I won't want to go to school tomorrow. D: I shall have to drag my ass around all day and piss people off some more whilst being a tired cow. Sounds fun for other people.

Speaking of tired I'm falling asleep right now. I'm so tired and warm, but I can't go yet because Goodman is brb-ing and I need to speak to her before I go because the dear is trying to print some stuff off for me as my printer is being a homophobe and won't work for my COPE homework. Fucking thing isn't worth her time, bless. :') and ooooh, congrats to her, she got into NEW COLLEGE! and will ~hopefully~ be joining me in September, so I wont be a complete loner! YAY! :)

I'm already trying to get into the swing of college things; making my dinner on a night and going to be at half ten rather than 11, although at college it will probably have to be ten rather than half past, because I'm still tired on a morning now, and I'll be up half an hour earlier for college to catch the chuffing bus. 8-) Ah well. I will live. :) It's only for two years, after all.

This is becoming waffle now, so I think I'm gunna go and patiently wait for Goodman and then go to bed to try and finish my dream form two nights ago. It was so nice and lovely and I felt amazing in it. Why, oh, why does it have to be in my head and not real? :( Shame.

Wish me luck.

Gute Nacht, Leute :)
Ich liebe euch x

Late to bed, Early to rise

Listening to: Kings of Leon - Use somebody

I have to say, as amazing as their album is, I hate the album artwork. Four heads mashed together with a bird. Wtf is up with that?! Kinda spoils it a little.

I woke up at 7am this morning, if not earlier 'cause I kinda stared at the ceiling for a while before deciding to see what time it was. I am NOT impressed, and am now suffering the consequences of going to bed at around 2am, with a blinding headache. I was only up 'cause I was downloading somthing... which is still downloading now... only at 54%! after around 6 hours of downloading, because of course my laptop turned itself to standby in the middle of the night. Blah. It's worth it to have the thing on my ipod providing it works. :D haha. I won't jinx it by saying any more.

I learnt today that Lady Gaga is touring with Cinema Bizarre! WHY IN GODS NAME?! Is she crazy?! Well, apparantly so... She is sooo much better than them! (If you don't know who they are, they're some glam-rock, wanna be visual-kei, pop band from Germany who sing in English.) They're songs are mediocre, and are just about listenable to but nothing in the same league as Lady Gaga's. Alas, I will never know why she chose them.

Everyone seemed to get into Fishers sixth form yesterday, and now people are confused. Then it all crashed on me... I'm actually leaving them all. Some of them.. no offence, but I can't wait to get rid of, and others I don't want to. And the fact that I won't know anyone is beginning to bug and scare me already... in March! I'm so shy in new places, and I pretty much have just stuck to the same few friends for the past 5 years, other than a couple - online pals don't count. :( I don't even know if I can remember how to make friends!! Someone from my primary school is going, and she seems all up for going with me, but I've spoken to her like, what, once or twice? in the past 3 or 4 years. It's all so scary. I'm gunna be crapping myself the night before, I can just tell. ARGH!!

I bought some stupid jumper for my interview. It's nice but its not my style. It'll do, it's smart and office-like. Some jewellery will make it better. :)

...55% downloaded, after about 15 minutes since I checked. Yeah, that's how slow this thing is. Just being patienttt...

Aaaand lastly, I was checking out my photo-editing skills earlier. Haha, I'm sooooooo good.

See?!
Told you.
rofl.

Puzzled

Listening to: Mayday Parade - Jamie all over

Voila! The song my blogname came from. Clever huh? Only I changed to to my name, got rid of the capitals and mushed it all together. :D

Hmm, I'm in a mini-dilemma today. Seeing as everyone else, pretty much, is at Fishers sixth form interviews today, I'm wondering if I did the right thing not applying. Because, well, even though I don't want to go there AT ALL, going to Huddersfield (which is what I'm doing) is going to cause so much hassle, and pressure, and lack-of-time, and money for my mum. I know she only wants what is best for me (which is Hudds.) but it means she'll have to pay about £400 for travel for both years, then all the exchanges (two each year I think), and then all my books for English and everything else like trips for those, too. I guess there's not going back now... well, there is but there isn't... :S

I was gunna stick a video here, now, but I still don't know how. Rofl.

Term time - once again

Listening to: Tokio Hotel - Ich bin nich' ich [Live]

Photobucket is a gay. First all the pictures in my last post were tiny, then they went massive and then I resized them to the size they are now. It's a pisstake is that website. And it takes forever to load for me, too. Pshh.

Going back to school has been uneventful. I'm piled under coursework ALREADY, although I must say half of it is only to make corrections/add bits and pieces... until we get a load more history. But that is going to be on evacuations so it should ~hopefully~ be a little more interesting than the Battle of Britain, or Dunkirk. *sigh* I'm still not looking forward to it, though...

Everyone else is the same as they were, but whose gunna change over a week? Exactly.

I got my official acceptance letter to college, so when they receive my reply, I will be going to Huddersfield New College for definite. Eeeee, exciting. xD! I'm already wanting to go. I can't wait to leave Fishers. I never want to be there anymore and I think it's because I know I'm going to college, I just want to leave now. I have no patience for high school anymore. I can't wait to GET OUT!

End of. :)